okay, so it's official. I don't want to ever get married. I wouldn't mind spinning my lifetime with just one woman though. Also, I don't think I'm going to die anytime soon. Well I do, but I have begun to plan beyond it, so I can't afford to die too soon. I want my own. I want a son. I want to be completely independent. I've reached the state in which I feel like I'm a burden on everybody I live with. Unless I'm paying my way, I feel like, they feel like they own me. Fuck that.